My First Time

Excitement, enthusiasm, worries and fears are the emotions that I felt on my first time. There are many questions that coming out on my mind. I can’t describe the exact feelings I felt from that first time. How about you can you tell me your first time?

Common questions being asked about your first time are as follow:

1. Do you still remember your first time?
2. What did you do?
3. How does it feel?
4. Are you with somebody when you did it?
5. How do you look like when you did it?
6. How does other think about it?
7. Is the any regret?

My First Time Experience

It took me months in pursuing the plan, asking everyone especially those who had experienced that first time without any idea that I was planning to do it.

Yes! I still remember why I did it? How I did it? And how I dealt with that overwhelming emotions.

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There were butterflies in my stomach and yet I was willing to take the risk because I know for a fact that this will change a part of me. I had hidden this desire for a long time but my heart was already set on my plan no matter what circumstances I might face.

Felt Strong and Carefree

Timid, gentle and quiet as they have described me but this was a life changing experience. I have exposed the other side of me when I did it. That move gave me adrenalin rush making me felt strong and carefree.

For others it’s not a big deal but for me it was. To me this was a great escape reality because of the situation I was into.

That big day came. I was with somebody who had the same plan but I was the one who was really eager that day. We were in a small room and I was the one who did it first. As I felt the needles puncturing my skin little by little, I heard sounds that made me felt nervous but I want to do it and I need to do it.

I Felt Victorious

And yes, the long wait was over. I felt victorious, I’ve handled it despite of my fear. I came out of my shell. That was the start of the change I have been waiting for.

As I had experienced it, I wanted more. It’s very addicting. I just can’t stop. Just thinking about it makes me excited. And now my mind is set to enjoy and treasure all those coming first time. I hope you do too.